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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Ciku










Motif saja nak tunjuk yang budak subang pon pandai jolok buah ciku. Siapa kata kami cuma pandai main psp saje?

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Sri Manis










Lokasi : Gemas, Segamat.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Surviving Break-Ups


Bismillah. This is the topic that I always always and always avoid to discuss. I know that Hanis Zalikha just blog about this topic due to many demand. I might not as fame as her, and not even close but try me, many people have been asking me this question for god knows how many times. Many as if a big numbers that finally pull off my limits to respond and re-blog about this to shut them off. No kidding.

I am a strong girl who keeps her stuff in line. Even I have tears going down on my face i managed to say the two words, Im Fine. I have go through a serious relationship before. And have go through a serious heartbreak as well. And the next day, i was found party hard like nobody business. Here comes to the point that people starting to ask me this lame question. How did you survive in Break-ups?

A question that I cant barely answer since a year ago. I dont know how to answer that question but literally as you can see i kept myself busy with work, school, family, hobby, social life, events and friends. I even have the urge to migrate to a country that nobody knows me so that i can built up a new life where I can walk anywhere on the street without have to remember any fucking stupid memories. Bulshit. Trust me, I have been doing this for years. It does not work at all. So take my advise, if you are surviving break-ups and you kept yourself busy just to get rid of how much you miss... You are so wrong.

Maybe it works sometimes, but at the end of the day, loneliness strikes and your mind start to distract by that idiot ex boyf/gurf. Then you start to sobs, listen to the stupid Gio-Bila Cinta song, delete him from fb, browsing your couple picture, start cursing, sob again, make a big triple layer spicy tuna sandwich, watching your homemade dating video, big sob, eat cartons of ice cream, get the handphone, text him/her, ego strikes, msg saves in draft, sobs again, sleep, the next morning you look completely like a miserable loser. This is what will happen if you think that busyness is the solution for moved on. Well thats what i thought for the last few years.

Until last week, i went to MasterChef audition. Stage 3. They ask me a sensitive question that I refused to answer. I failed that stage. Since then I try to comfort myself that i failed the stage because i cant do public speaking. It is funny that sabya is in the event & marketing field. And she cant talk. In fact her presentation skills is much better than some people in the industry and still she cant talk. Bulshit. I have been spending so many nights thinking why I should lie to myself. I failed that stage because I refused to answer that fucking question. A sensitive question that i dont wish to talk about. Refusing is a big no in reality shows. I have been spending so many nights thinking the reason why I cant answer that question. I perform solat, solat and solat for so many nights. Why Allah?? One night i found out the answer. Because I have not moved on. I know it is very pathetic to discover that you are still not moved on after years. At least i felt grateful to notice this now rather than get to realizes it after 10 years. And the reason why i havent moved on is the ANGER. I thanked Allah. It is fascinating how hidayah can comes in many forms of your life.

ANGER is a big barrier on why you cant survive in break-ups. And forgiving is the best fight for anger. I perform solat again and again. Asking for direction. Then I learn to forgive... Only god knows how much i was hurt, distressed, depressed, demotivated, dissapointed, crushed because of the past man of my life. It is very sad when you have given all out commitment to the loved of your life just to found out that in the end they crushed your heart into brittles. It is pathetic to see how much love can turned into a buckets full of hatred.

When you start to hate, ANGER revolves. No matter how happy your lifes are, trust me, you are not moving on if the anger is still there. Forgiveness is the best solution. Most importantly, do not hold grudges on others. Forgive and forget. I know im not the best person to talk about this. But this is something that i wanna share after so many nights of munajat. I put my guts on to blog this out because i have been there. Why Islam encouraged us to forgive everybody around us before we sleep? Because we never know when we will die. Kun fayakun. The only sins that Taubat doesnt accept is dosa sesama manusia. A sin that only can be forgive by the respective person. If you ever hurt other people feelings and you dont have the chance to seek forgiveness, that is very shame of you because you have the time of your life to do so and you did not.

I learned that it does not matter who's on the fault. Do seek forgiveness and forgive others. Thats what i do currently. Try to forgive and forget. I put my ego down. I call, i text, i skype, i do whatever it takes to make things clear. Maybe some of them does not even bother but its okay, at least i have done my part :) And now i feel relieved than ever........... Im at the stage of really MOVED ON and praying the best for them :) Although the damage is done, I did seek forgiveness from my ex's when the fact that I think it should be the other way around. But its okay. Allah knows the best and thats the path that i see for now. I have done my part and at least if I die tomorrow i have no regret :)

Nota Kaki: I will come back again to MasterChef next season, put my brave face on and said that I cant answer your question a year ago because I was dumb, i get emotional instead of professional, my mind get distracted by people that does not even bother about me. Im not coming back here for fame. I dont give a damn if I cant join MasterChef, i just wanna tell you that the answer for the question is that, I am now completely moved on and I have no interest at all towards my ex's. Its their lose not mine. TQVM :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Raacuun



exhibit 1: Abg angkat kita zul miji yg keje kat Saudi introduce kita kat page Raacuun Ni!!!
And it was awesome!!! So overseas friends, please LIKE this page!!!
Adit, itik, pija, sara you gonna thank me for this ;)))
Duduk mesia pon boleh layan tv & astro free kat raacuun.
Comes with i-phone and bb aps as well :)
Sharing is caring. Do tell others.
*Tapi yang ta bestnye smlm lajuuuuu je streaming, tetibe arini fan naik mendadak makin ramai makin lembap!!

exhibit 2: Went to UiTM Shah Alam gym dengan Ana. Oke mamat2 yg pg gym sume stok badan panas. haha. Kita pakai selipar kuning. Dorang ta kasi main. Pastu mamat situ ajak g stretching kat lua sama2. Tana aku. Haha. Then pegi tasik ngan Ana. Aktiviti sihat :)

exhibit 3: Balik uma, mak tanya pasal keje. Aku cakap aku minat keje yang selalu travel. And interview yang aku pegi semua keje yang melibatkan kena travel sana sini. Mak aku cakap carilah keje yang setempat je, susah travel2 ni. Pastu aku cakap aku minat keje camni, kang aku trus migrated kat luar negara balik 2 taun skali kang, lagi mak rindu. Pastu mak cakap nanti kawen susah. Aku cakap, bukannya aku na kawen lagi. Mak cakap umo da brapa sekarang. Aku cakap alar 23 pon blum. Mak cakap umur 25 kawen!! Aku dah wadahekkkkkkkkkkkkk!!! Suka suki bagi aku dateline, anak dia ni da la hodoh tade sape na. Aku emo. Sekian.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Moist Chocolate Cake

Sebagai karnivor, aku ta banyak favorite dessert. Tapi on top of the list, FAMOS AMOS la. Purata aku beli famos amos adalah at least seminggu sekali. Na buat famos amos sendiri mmg ta dan la. Aku da byk kali try tapi ta penah nye menjadi. Ta penah sama rasa dia. Aku suspect Famos Amos letak ubat guna-guna Wak Tharatiwat la, tu yg sedap semacam tu. Oke bidaah. Sebenarnya na bitau, kelemahan aku adalah Famos Amos. Sebab tu ex-boypereng aku sume sampai naik miskin asyik beli Famos Amos kalau na ambil hati aku. Oke bakal suami masa hadapan yang ta diketahui siapa, sila ambil perhatian. Out of the topic. Disebabkan aku ta reti na buat Famos Amos cookies. Aku na revealed dessert kedua kesukaan aku. Moist Choc Cake. Yang ini aku reti buat. So far aku rasa this is the simple and the best recipe. If you are a fan of a very very very moistttttttt chocolate cake. You might want to try this out :)


Firstly combine all the dry ingredients. 2 cups of flour. Kita guna tepung ringan Blue Key. Confirm gebu kek you!! Tapi kalau pakai tepung gandum pon oke jugak. But make sure ayak dulu. Tamo malas ok


Dalam tepung tadi, masukkan 1 teaspoon of Soda Bika

Followed by 1 teaspoon of Baking Powder. Oke bahasa aku rojak. Haipp sensitif siaa bab2 rojak ni.... hurm... bahasa Manglish. Harap faham

Dry ingredients yang terakhir adalah 3/4 cup of serbuk koko
Ini rupanya dry ingredients tadi. So just kacau aduk supaya bercampur. Masukkan 1 teaspoon garam time ni kalau anda guna minyak. Kita guna butter for this recipe. Butter adalah masin. So i skip the garam part. But if u use oil, u kena letak garam oke. wajib. bye

Kita suke part ni. kacau kacau kacau. motif tiada. cuma na kasi sume bahan bercampur je. Pastu letak kat bawah tudung saji dulu.

Here comes to the fun part. Wet ingredients untuk dijadikan batter. First skali masukkan 2 cup of castor sugar dalam mixing bowl. oke kita tau gula adalah kering. Tapi untuk wet ingredients ni mmg kne start dengan gula.

This is very important. Add on 1 cup of butter/oil into the sugar. Aku rasa semua orang akan guna oil instead of butter. Sebab oil murah and stok sentiasa ada di dapur. Lemme explain, did u know the difference between kek yang sedap and tidak? Kek yang sedap adalah kek yang pakai butter. Lagi mahal butter tu lagi sedap. Ini bukan bidaah. Begitu jugak biskut raya, biskut yang murah, adalah biskut yang pakai marjerin. Marjerin adalah minyak sawit. Butter adalah diperbuat dari susu. Kalau pergi kedai mesti na beli biskut & kek yang murah tapi tatau yang mahal tu mahal bersebab. Sebab jauh lebih sedap and berkualiti. Perbezaan rasa biskut and kek yang pakai butter berbanding minyak adalah sangat ketara. Tolong faham konsep. Sharing is caring :)

Masukkan 2 biji telur gred A. Buat kek kena memang pakai telur bersaiz besar. KEMUDIAN PERHATIAN, masukkan 1 cup of milk. Aku lupa na amek gambar susu itu. So sila masukkan sekali ye.

1 teaspoon of esen vanila. Buat penyedap rasa and bau. Kalau ta letak ni macam makan sambal belacan ta letak belacan. Serius.

Godek. Godek. Godek. High speed. Sampai jadi batter. Jangan lame sgt. Cukup sekadar bahan tu sebati. Kalau lama, kek akan jadi bantat or keras. So sekadar sebati oke. Ini fakta.

Ingat ta dry ingredients bawah tudung saji tadi? Oke sekarang bole campukan dry ingridients tersebut dalam wet batter kita. Masuk pelan2 and gaul. This part, pakai spatula pon bole tayah pakai mixer. Sebab kek kalo kita hasty mix sangat dia akan jadi keras. Oke da 5x ulang.

Gaul pelan2 asal nampak sebati je

Lebey kurang rupanya dah hitam manis menawan berkilat camni. dah oke. tayah gatal tangan kacau 8 round lagi.

Sediakan baking tray. Letas kertas. Sapukan sikit minyak/butter kat baking tray supaya kek ta lekat & senang kuarkan nanti. Tuang adunan tadi dalam baking tray. Part yang paling ditunggu. Jilat spatula and mixing bowl yang ada sisa batter. sedap wooo. Oke buruk perangai.

Almost there... Masuk dalam oven & bakar sampai masak. Senang je, sesekali cucuk dengan garpu. Kalau kua bersih means dah kering. Kering= Dah Masak.

Apakah chocolate cake tanpa ganache nye. Guna teknik double-boiler. Air kat periuk bawak mendidih. Masukkan lagi satu periuk dalam air mendidih. Letak vanhauten/hersheys or any other cooking chocolate, mix with butter, milk & sugar. Bring it to boil. Dah cair. tutup api. sejukkan. Pastu mandikan atas kek. Fuhhhhh heaven!!!

Walaupun sedikit hodoh, tapi sedap!!! Usaha tangga kejayaan. Sekian. Happy trying :)

Monday, May 23, 2011

Always Bun


My favorite all time hairstyle. Hair bun. There is no use of doing rebonding because at the end of the day i will tide my hair to bun. Many people says that a frequent hair bun will damage your hair but who cares, i dont live to follow people styles. I saw makcik rojak india from my MasterChef batch managed to enter semifinal yesterday. I suppose to cook beside her yesterday if I succeed in stage 3 :( Happy for her. Yet envy. To express my envious I bake a chocolate cake today. My first attempt, it turns out hideous but tasty. Will share the recipe soon. And on demand, the shephard pie as well. Soon. Well went to an interview today. It is an international company. I have no idea that my interviewer is an english man with a very strong accent of NZ. Luckily i have no problem in understanding other countries accent. Been called to come for the second interview again tomorrow. He said that it will be a half day course to let us see how the company and the business operate. Sounds exciting. Dozing now. Have to wake up early tomorrow. Good Night beautiful and handsome peeps :)

Nota Kaki: I got to know a new Singaporean friend today. She's a loyal Sabyastory reader. It is very thoughtful of her to really make an effort just to get to know me :) So dear others silent reader, if you ought to be friend, just drop by and say hye! I wont bite :)

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Passion



  • Had a tremendous audition at MasterChef Malaysia just now.
    Thou i just make it until stage 3, it was all fun!! The funniest part is,
    masa 1st stage one contestant besides me masak sampai hangit,
    berasap-asap satu bilik. And the floor manager was like,
    "Cepat ambil gambar die!!" 4 cameraman keliling amek gambar
    mamat yang tengah panic tu... Hadoi so dramatic!!!
    21 hours ago · · ·

Bismillah. Semalam kita dah langsaikan satu wishlist dalam hidup. Nak masuk pertandingan memasak. Hehe. Walaupun grand prize adalah MYR 100k, intention bukan nak menang sangat pon, tapi nak cuba benda baru & dapat pengalaman baru. And yes i did!! Out of the nerves i really had fun!!! I heard that Masterchef ni sangatlah popular di luar negara. Tapi sumpah ta pernah tengok rancangan ni, baik Masterchef UK or Masterchef Australia or Junior Masterchef. First time aku tengok pon semalam, itupon masa tengah menggeletar isi borang kat bilik menunggu diorang pasang Masterchef Australia kat skrin besar.

Lepas tu kena interview, macam2 dia tanya. Yang penting siapa yang ada kena mengena dgn industri makanan taley masuk. Chef ke, keje restoran ke, keje kat warung pat mat ke, buat catering kampung ke, budak kulinari ke, bukak kelas blaja buat kek ke, Mak Mah jual Nasi Lemak kat tepi jalan pon diorang reject. Masa tgh isi borang aku dah cuak, kena sign kontrak, one of the terms are kalau dapat jadi finalist kena duduk dalam akademi selama 5 bulan. Gila kentang lama. And kontrak tu setebal 7 page.

Lepas isi borang masuk bilik pertama. Sebab die buat kat KDU, so ini macam hall dorang la. Agak besar. Kat sini la yang paling best. Macam-macam aksi sebab kita dapat tgk sementara tunggu giliran utk sediakan makanan kita. So sambil tunggu turn, dapatlah tgk orang lain serve. Die ikut batch. Sekali masak 6 orang. And kami diberi masa 5 MINIT SAHAJA. Sampai giliran aku. Oke harini aku buat Shepherd Pie. Masa tgh na panaskan pie, & decorate tu sume, time nila aku betul2 rasa the heat of the camera. Kalau kau biasa tgk cooking reality show, sebenarnya dalam set tu ade 4 videoman. and tah berapa cameraman. Cuak gile bila kau tgh masak & 2 cameraman kiri kanan depan fokus muka kau.

Yang paling kelakar minit ke 4, mamat yang betul2 sebelah aku, makanan die hangit dalam oven. Aku pon panik tgk asap berkepu-kepul. Die lagilah panik kan.... Terus aku dengar floor manager tu suruh videoman amek gambar die yang tengah panik abes tu... Kesian jugak, tapi itulah reality show kan... Bab drama2 ni mmg lagilah org suka capture kan... Aku bajet, confirm astro akan siarkan moment ni. Makanan die pon langsung hangus. Aku sampai ta dapat detect apa yg die masak sebab mmg dah hitam legam. Dah puas menyebok intai dapur sebelah, aku pon fokus balik kat makanan aku. Orang lain siap buat bunga tomato, kapal garuda nenas, timun naga segala bagai. Aku punya decoration simple je. Sehelai daun rosemary atas shepherd pie aku. Thats it. Because i believe less is more :)

Pastu sesi amek gambar. Amek gambar potret dengan masakan masing2. Aku rasa aku paling lama, dengan posing bagai. 5 lelaki amek gambar kau, fuhh... perasan artis kejap... Tapi mmg aku paling lama. Haizz.... aku langsung ta amek gmbr time audition ni sbb diorang ta kasi bawak camera :( Kalau gambar aku ade di-tagged kat fb. Nanti kita share disini ye. But seriously aku paling enjoy moment amek gambar ni. HEHE

Next, kami dibawa masuk bilik 2. Sekali masuk, 6 orang. Sesi food testing dengan 3 juri. Before 3 orang chef ni rasa masakan kau. Kau kena present 2 minit untuk terangakn apa yang kau masak macam na menjual makanan tersebut. Yang paling kesian mamat sebelah aku nila, yang masak sampai hangus tadi. Die masuk dengan makanan die kalaer hitam sebesar syiling 50sen yang ta dapat dikenal pasti apa. Bila die present baru aku tau, itu mozarella rupanya, cheese patutla masuk oven panas sgt trus jadi keropok arang. Adoii.. kesian dia. Chef juri 3 orang ni dah tua selalu jugak nmpk kuar tv tapi aku ta pasti nama dorang apa. Lepas abes 6 orang present. Chef pon komen satu2. Turn aku, Die kata shepherd pie ni unik, sangat inovasi and tiga2 chef suka. So out of 6 orang tu, die pilih 2 je. Shepherd pie aku n rojak seorang makcik india ni. Alhamdulliah. Macam ta caya. Sebab dalam beribu orang datang memang ta ramai yang dapat lepas stage ni.

Kemudian dibawa ke bilik 3. Wahhh aku dah cuak gila, kesian tgk kawan2 baru sume balik dengan muka hampa. Untuk sampai ke bilik 3 ni memang susah. Sebab sepanjang aku menunggu kat luar dari pagi, daripada beribu orang baru beberapa orang aku nmpak masuk bilik 3. Ta sampai 10 orang kot. So tahap neves aku dah tahap dewa kuasa 5 lah kan masa tunggu sorang2 kat luar bilik 3 tu. Lepas dipanggil masuk. Aku kne diri dalam 1 kotak. Depan ada 3 juri. 2 lighting. And tah brapa kamera. Lebih kurang setting ujibakat AF. Part nila yang aku failed. Die bagi 10 minit ceritakan pasal diri sendiri yang boleh memikat hati juri. Demmm im a boring person who leads a boring life................... Ape je yang aku na cite???? Pastu aku da neves... kaki meliar keluar kotak. Sampai abang cameraman tegur. Pastu juri tanya soalan itu ini. Last skali dorang tanya aku soalan yang aku rasa terlalu privasi. Aku tana jawab. Pastu aku rasa mesti dorang dah bosan tgk aku kan. Dah la tergagap neves, berpeluh-peluh, ta friendly plak tu. HAHA. Terus aku dapat 2 NO kat bilik 3 tu. Hadoii padahal selangkah je lagi tuk pegi camp semi-final. Anyways 3 orang juri tu ada mintak address blog sabyastory ni. Dear juries, if you happen to read this, i had a real fun at Masterchef!!!!! To bad that i cannot make it to the final academy but the unforgettable experience that counts :) Thanks a lot :)

Itulah pengalaman manis aku yang berjaya overcome aku punye fright barrier and pegi audition reality shows sorang2. Seriously it tooks a lot of courage for me to go. Walaupun sampai stage 3 je, i ta sedih langsung because i had a real fun and it was the best experience ever. Walaupun gagal, Most importantly aku ta akan berhenti memasak malah sekarang aku in the process ligat and berkobar-kobar na beli barang2 kek and na blaja baking pulak!!! Hehe aku masak sebab passion bukan na jadi artis so ta kesahlah kalau aku ni mmg stage fright n ta pandai bercakap depan camera at least aku dapat 3 YES dari chef masa ujian foodtesting:)


Dont forget to watch this amazing MasterChef Malaysia at Astro Ria this coming October!!


Nota Kaki: Life is short, live up to your passion :)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Ikan Bakar

Kita tengah isi borang audition ni. 6 page okay. Semua soalan luar dalam celah kiri kanan dia na tanya. Tapi best jugak, perasaan macam tengah jawab tagged. Thanks to atika yang dah support & print borang ni untuk kita. Wah esok audition, sumpah kita ta prepare apa2, or berlatih ape2.. yang kita tau kita cuma na jadi diri sendiri. Buat apa na jadi hipokrit?? I will present just the way who i am. Cuma sayangnya kita taley pakai sliper kuning besok, takut baru na masuk da kena halau. Haha. Harap2 dapat masuk next stage, stage seterusnya, dan seterusnya dan seterusnya. Amin :) Interview kerja pulak kita re-schedule ke next Monday. Naseb baik company tu ok. Motif gambar? Kita rindu na makan ikan bakar. Jom pegi Umbai!!!


Nota kaki : SABYA GILA SEDIH. TA SEMPAT NAK PEGI MELANCONG BERBARING TEPI PANTAI SAMBIL PAKAI SHADES & SUNBLOCK, HIDUP DAH KEMBALI PADAT. DEMM TAPE DEMI BETTER TOMORROW. GEAAAAHHHH!!!!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Impian or Kerjaya??

Hidup ini aneh. Perasaanya macam baru semalam aku habis SPM and tercari-cari arah tuju hidup. Ayah suruh jadi lawyer, tapi aku nak jadi wedding planner. Pengaruh filem la ni. Hehe. Tapi aku ta pernah menyesal & bangga dengan jalan yang aku pilih sebab aku ta pernah menyusahkan mak bapak. Kalau dulu aku bole masuk mana2 kolej yang aku na atau pergi Aussie negara idaman aku sekalipun, tapi aku tana. Sebab aku na berjaya dengan usaha aku sendiri bukan dengan biasiswa FAMA. Aku sarung balik baju sekolah and masuk form 6. Form 6 susah oke. Satu keputusan yang aku ta akan lupa sampai bila-bila. Hasil dari usaha yang ta berapa rajin, hehe aku berjaya tamatkan ijazah. Macam ta percaya. Macam2 aku lalui dalam 3 tahun ni. Dari masalah belajar, kolej, kawan2, family dan cinta. Tapi alhamdulillah,itu semua pengalaman yang mematangkan aku. Anyways aku pon tatau kenapa aku rajin sangat na menaip malam ni. Mungkin sebab ada ura-ura kemungkinan sabyastory akan ditutup tak lama lagi. Sob sob. Korang sedih ta... Aku lagi sedih... Da 5 tahun da sabyastory ni, da bole anta masuk skola tedika. Hurm sebenarnya, aku tengah dalam dilema. Perasaan yang lebih kurang sama macam masa aku abes SPM dulu. Aku kena buat decision yang besar. Well isu ni tadela sebesar isu siapa patut jadi calon suami aku. But still, keputusan ni yang akan mencorakkan future aku. Sebenarnya aku ta ready lagi na bekerja. Hard cover thesis pon aku belum submit lagi. Tapi last week aku gatal tangan apply resume kat jobstreet. Jadinya banyak gila interview call yang aku dapat. Rabu ada, khamis ada, jumaat ade. Itu ta termasuk ujian PTD yang kena pergi. Ayah saya suruh apply jugak. Tapi yang aku paling berkenan interview yang hari Rabu sebab bos tu sendiri yang call aku. Dia cakap die tertarik dengan resume aku. Dengan offer gaji yang dia bagi, fridge benefits, banyak travel, and flexible working hours, aku memang agak interested lah kan. So aku akan pergi interview tersebut Rabu ni. Wish me luck!! TAPI masalahnya, aku ada satu audition penting jumaat ni, and kalau aku terpilih aku akan dapat kejar impian yang aku berangan selama ni, tapi aku kena korbankan kerjaya la. So impian ke kerjaya???


Nota kaki: Company yang panggil interview hari khamis & jumaat ni nature of business dia organise conference and seminar... So not my cup of tea. So kesimpulan, aku tak pergi and na prepare untuk audition hari Jumaat. Huh Brainstorm Sabya!!!