demam...

Rasa na demam..aku pake sweater.. kepala da pusing macam yoyo.. Tapi PR byk lagi ta baca... Ahad da paper.. Minum kopi tuk stay awake.. Kepala makin tarik... telan panadol 4 biji... Esok zaza nikah, aku ta rasa fit langsung tuk jd pengapit.. Fam sume da g hols kat tganu... Aku tinggal sensorang kat uma.. Sedang berusaha supaya ta mati kering seorang diri dalam uma nih.. Sepanjang hari aku mengeluh.. jadi org hodoh susah, jadi org cantik lagi susah...

LOST

I need my study spirit so badly...

*having a period pain since last 3 days, makes me sleep throughout the day

*my brain cant stop functioning thinking of this & that...

*my heart is confused...

*my soul is lost..

*im missing someone, something, somewhat, somewhere, somehow..

*I know i should stop hoping... and sit my lazy ass in front of the study table.

*because i know, i dont deserves to be happy & never would be... So face the fact sabya!!

*Cant wait for 8 May digital diary, think will ask ayah for BERJAYA card, go thru a hols therapy alone and regain my life spirit again. Its almost faded...

Nani & Mek Suprise Burfday Bash!!

nota kaki : And the award for the most DRAMA QUEEN OF THE NIGHT goes to, Miss Hanani Mohd Nashrul Ashraf (its ok to cry...:)

So im speechless...

They had lunch at the zwelicious Pak Mal Nasi Ayam, and then headed to Peejay. Really having a good quality time together. Joking,teasing,LOL,wondering, until...

Him : ok ta camni syg?

Her : Ape u panggil i tadi?

Him : long pause. Sorry it has been a year & a month. Da terbiasa. susah tibe2 na tuka...

Both : *Speechless

Some things takes time, digital diary...

Ely's Place

Releasing stress the night before exam at ely's place. Good luck for your budget paper tomorrow miss sabya!! love, digital diary

The Ex-Files

1. What’s your previous ex’s name?

- I guess his name is almost everywhere in my blog

2. When did you guys hook up?

- I was in my 2nd semester, and he was in his final year

3. How long did you think you’d last?

- 1year & 1month

4. If you would have had kids with him/her, what would have been their names?

- Raka & Ryo (haha, dont ask!)

5. Do you still love him/her?

- Can i lie??

6. Would you get back with him/her?

- Time will tell

7. Was he/her your first love?

- Nope. My first love is a different story.

8. What did your parents think of him/her?

- My mom said he was okay..

9. Did you get along with his/her friends?

- I get along well with his bestfriends

10. Did he/her get along with your friends?

- No. some of my friends in UiTM didn’t really like him. But i dont bother,bcos they tend to judge recklessly when they know exactly nothing!!!

11. Why did you break up?

- Because he is the backbone of his family, i dont want to be another burden. Plus there are many people out there who always pray for our seperation. Congrats to them!!

12. Was it a “Clean” Break up?

- I wont take it as dirty, but dusty

13. Do you still talk to this person?

- Yes, we make a good pair of FRIEND

14. If he/she were right in front of you what would you say to him/her?

- I take a good care of Pingu. No worries

15. Where did you meet?

- Digital Mall

16. What was the best part of your relationship?

- Too many too list

17. Would you be able to wake up to that face every morning?

- I wish i were...

18. Did your siblings like him/her?

- They seems to get along well

19. Would you rather him/her text you or call you?

- Its not a crime for a fren to text/call a fren aite?

20. Do you wish he/she called/text you right now?

- He called me just now, asking if we can have a quick lunch together tomorrow after my paper. I said why not?

21. What are your latest thoughts of him/her?

- I wish all his wishlists come true

22. What’s your favorite memory with that person?

- Our declaration day & Melaka Trip

23. Remembering all that, does it make you miss him/her?

- Sometimes...

24.Now, honestly, do you still love him/her?

- A part of me, says yes. Another part has let go... Count yourself

25.Are you going to get over it, and make out with someone else? - I have moved on, and in a process of knowing someone new... you know who you are :)

*I tagged every single people in my FRIENDS WITHOUT BENEFITS list. xoxo Peace

Exhibit

Exhibit 1 : Where the heck is my calculator??? Budget paper to sit for in less than 48 hours, & brilliant sabya just realize that she lost her calculator. Luckily sgmk is back home for weekend so sheused his calculator to do some case study exercises. But most importantly she need the calculator on the exam day itself so need to go to ely's place tomorrow and borrow her calculator *sigh

Exhibit 2 : Dumb ass sabya did not print her exam slip yet. And the stupid uitm server has closed down for maintainence since last 2 days. Ko ingat tanpe xm slip tu ko ley sit for xm ke?? Harrraaammm satu paper pon taley amik. Ta pasal2 kne repeat satu sem sbb tade slip xm. Tula suke sgt wat last minute kan??? Hamek ko!! Again the brilliant sabya overcome this problem with the help from kysha. And wash hand, done!!

Exhibit 3 : Mak nenenek sabya forgot where she put her marketing file. A file that contains her colorful notes yang kalo bace konfirm dapat A+... Huhu where is the file anyways :(( Tula idup cam pelarian, barang ko pon tah mane2 bersepah... Have to find it until jumpa after budget paper! Pretty please pray for me. I need those notes soo badly. The only subject that i consistently making notes.

Exhibit 4 : (I have deleted their story because this type of people does not deserve to be here. Get lost!!)

Exhibit 5 : Ape kena ngan mak aku?? Pas aku refuse pasal hal exhibit 4 tuh, mak pujuk aku.Mak kate pegila.. tlg org, t awk kawen kang tade sape na jadi pengapit. And then spontaneously i said "mcmla ank mak ni kawen". Kalo dlu aku na kua, mak akn tny aku mcm2 soklan, skrg ni weeken aku duk uma, mak bole tny lak nape ak ta kua ngan kwn, boley ta??? Aku ingat lagi maser aku still ngan jiji, ktorg ader gaduh jap yg membuatkan aku majuk tana g wedding abg die, tp mak yg nasihat aku suh pegi. Mak kate ta elok la ta g sbb fam die da knal ak. Yela ari sebelumnya brapa periuk lauk plak mak jiji tu tapau tuk fam aku kan.. plg best sup gear box!! mak ak da suke la tuh.. huhu..Tapi maybe jodoh ak ngan jiji sampai situ je kot... but still ktorg ttp kwn n hangout sesama :)

Pastu time ktorg tgk2 kad kawen kazen aku tuh, mak kate "hissyy ta nmpak tulisannye nih, t awk kalo na buat kad pilih yg tulisan besar2 sket, font jgn kerawang2 sgt" ak dah *buat muka wtf, "mak ingat ader org ke na kawen ngan ank mak nih??" Last night my cuzzie wat meeting psl her wedding at my aunt's place. Ak ni tgh study dgn gigihnya, konon. Mak plak byk keje skola, jd ta pg. Ayah n sgmk je pg. dah kul 12mlm tu lapar aku trn minum supper n borak2 ngan mak. Aku ckp la, psl syndrome goodie beg yg kekazen aku kemaruk sgt tuh. Kalo ikut aku ta berkenannye la ngan kaedah itu. Org da wat bunge telur cantik, p sumbat dalam beg yg tahpape dgn segala mcm candy, jajan, kepok, telur, kek, saputgn segala... SEMAK OKE!! Tp lantaklah wedding dorang bkn wedding aku. Ak pon ckp ngan mak, kalo aku, aku cuma na bg fridge magnet muka aku n laki aku je besar2. Bia tampal kat fridge, org ta kn buang. Lagi ari2 tgk muka ktorg. Mak aku pon ckp oke gak tuh tp kalo bole telur tuh bg la jgk, yg laen2 tuh tayah wat semak je. Tbe2 aku da rase cam conversation ktorg menjurus kpd wedding aku plak. So aku trus bg fullstop. "ok la mak na smbg study" huhu. Aku detect ni sumer berpunca dari adamaya, aritu parents aku tgk scene makbapak adam maen ngan cucu dorg dgn aksi yg penuh syahdu. Hadoyai, cepatla abg kakak aku kawen...

Exhibit 6 : A special someone proposed me. He said he's into me since a long time ago. Since im totally single right now, he think this is the best time for him to make move. Invite me for dinnner la, aper la... I told him, i tgh final skrg and i dont have time for those lovey dovey things. He asked me when is my last paper, i said 8 May. And he said "i have waited for u for so long, extending to 8 May would not be a prob. I wont disturbed u till then. I'll kol u on 8May. Neway my bufday is on 11May, i hope we will be ready by then. Pastu kalo bole,trus on je u jd gf i :)" Aku dah huh??? sukati jer mamat nih.." tana im not ready". Pastu die ckp "kalo na jumpa mak u pon i brani." Na msk meminang ke aper mamat nih?? OMG tolonglah... Personally he is 25, damansara-ian,working in gomen sector, a devoted championship drifter, fahrin looks, kalo uols dgr name die pon da ley cair.. and he was soo nice.... pleasekillmeifhemetmyparentsbecausetheyaredefinetlygoingtolikehim. MAK, TANA KAWEN!! Its okay, Marcus Evans here i come!!! Please send me away to London for the next 2012 Olympic!! Preparation for Olympic normally start 5 years prior in advance, so layak lah aku dicampak ke sana nxt yr kan?? Berangan lah ko sabya, skali ME amek ko jadi balaci je!! Tapela ME u hire i jadi tukang sental kotoran trek olahraga pon i sudi, janji dapat g London!! Yuuhuuu

Congrats Zaza!!

Pernah suatu ketika saya bersekolah di SMK Telok Panglima. Itulah pertama sekali saya tinggal di asrama. Tapi ini adalah sekolah asrama harian jadi ada yang tinggal di asrama dan ader yg ulang-alik dari rumah. Hari pertama di sekolah, saya rasa sgt tak best sbb ta knal sape2 sedangkan mereka dah ader cliques masing2 yela saya kan bdk subang yg sesat disini.

Tibe2 ader orang tegur saya, ajak duduk sebelah dier. Saya sangat seronok kawan dengan dier. Nama die hafizah, tp saya pangil dier zaza. Saya, bibi. Ibbayu, yuyu. Ain, nini. Kami berempat sgt rapat. Zaza memang pasangan belangkas saya. Yuyu ader keta & bpk die wat bisnes karaoke, jd kami slalu bersosial bersama. Nini pula yg paling baik, kami akn jadi insaf setiap kali dgr nasihat dier pastu esok wat lg.huhu.

Tapi sudah pasti saya paling rapat dengan zaza sbb saya duk sebelah dier di kelas n dia kwn pertama saya disini. zaza,yuyu,&nini duk ruma, saya sorg je duduk asrama. Jadi saya slalu tdo ruma dorg, yang paling kerap tentulah uma zaza. kalo saya lapar dan ta selera makan mknn hostel, zaza akan datang bwk mknn tuk saya. Kami slalu sleepover bersama, dan borak sepanjang malam n sedar2 dah subuh. Die sgt rajin, saya yg ta senonoh ni akan sambung tido dan dier buatkan breakfast tuk saya. Kadang2 mlm lapar, die masakkn tuk saya. Die sgt manjakan saya.

Saya mengalami putus cinta yg paling dasyat mase lower6, dialah pendengar setia. Kadangkala kami menangis bersama-sama. Open house ruma saya, die sanggup dtg naik motor wpun jauh. Ble upper 6 saya pindah ke skolah biasa di subang jaya sbb mak kate diantar ke skola asrama pon saya makin ta blaja, huhu. Betul ckp mak!!

Wpun da ta skola di sana, kami masih rapat, sebulan skali mesti saya pegi tdo umah zaza. Kami pg pantai Morib, buat bbq, buat party, pg mkn2, pg futsal, pg karaoke. Maser burfday saya die pos hadiah tuk saya, mase burfday die, saya ponteng skola n buat suprise party tuk die. Wpun saya dah ta skola disitu, setiap jamuan,bbq,dinner die akn byrkan in advance untk saya n paksa saya dtg.

Lepas abis stpm, saya, yuyu, & nini dapat msk U tp die ta dpt. Sedangkan result dier jauh lebih baik dr saya. Die sgt kecewa n sejak drp tu, die hilang. Dulu setiap malam saya nangis ble teringat die. Sungguh saya rindu die. Sbb dgn die saya dapat satu persahabatan yg satu tak mampu define dengan kata2. Last year saya dengar dier da bertunang, tapi antara kami berempat sorg pon die ta jemput. Kecik ati saya.

Hari ini die kol saya, dengan no. barunye. Die kate die mintak maaf, die kate die pon rindu saya cuma die malu sbb rasa ta layak na berkawan dengan saya. Die blaja rajin2 semata-mata sbb die na msk U sama2 dengan saya supaya die akan rasa setaraf berkawan dengan saya, tp die gagal. Saya marah, saya kata sampai ati die berfikiran begitu, sebab saya berkawan dengan die ikhlas. Wpun slalu sleepover di rumah kampung die, ta penah skali saya merungut. Saya hepi sbb fam die layan saya spt keluarga sendiri.

Die pon menangis. Die kate ingat ta kt pernah berjanji jd pengapit utk satu same laen? Saya cume berdehem iye. Kemudian die bersuara, yg die akan kahwin nxt wek and betapa dier berharap saya berada di sebelah die semasa saat pernikahannya. OMG OMG OMG inilah kwn pertama saya yg akan berkahwin!! Inilah kali pertama dalam hidup saya menangis sebab gembira. Saya dah ta mampu na teruskan perbualn mahupun bercakap pape, cume saya cakap saya sgt gembira untuk die :)

To zaza, no worries k... we have been talk about our marriage and wut veil we shud wear during our wedding since we was a 2 naive skool gurl, now ur time has come, fo surely i will be there, beside u, holding hands sharing all the nerves together bcos we are the BEST OF FRIEND.

nota kaki: Dulu saya pake hp cap ayam and tade camera, so kami ta byk gambar bersama.

Peyton Sawyer

Goodbye Haley James Scott, says Hello again to Peyton Sawyer :) I watched Bride Wars yesterday, and i burst into tears. Huhu LAME. Love is contagious but Friendship is always undescribeable

Camwhores

Something that we have been enjoyed doing since we was 13, now we r are almost 22 and we r still having fun of doing it!!! It is very thoughtful of a friend to ring and lending his/her ears to listen to all your problems, but it is even more blessing when a friend drive all the way to your place just to make sure that you are doing okay. You make my day :) ILYSM BFF